I can't even look you in the face without my brain puking all over itself.
I don't understand you or your actions. You're obviously resentful of what your life has become - well TOO FUCKING BAD, SUCK IT UP. Stop whining, stop being a martyr, stop being a sorry excuse for a man. Stop trying to drag everyone down with you while you attempt to make your own life miserable.
Nut up or shut up, asshole.