Feeling generally pissed. Maybe I'm expecting too much or maybe my hormones are fucking with my brain or something, but what the fucking fuck man.
Aren't you supposed to be aosidfjaosdf?? Especially now that oijdfoaidjfasdfo and yet it's still the same, still the same, still the FUCKING same - if not worse than ever before. I don't know what the fucking fuck you take me for, seriously. I have come to the conclusion that my brain is fucking small because, hey, i'm still standing here waiting like a spastic child.
I swear to god there is not a single dependafuckingble soul left on the fucking planet. Too often I place hopes on something or someone and it/he/she will always end up disappointing.
I don't even know how to tell you because in the end you will always explain away; always make me feel guilty for doubting; always make me feel like shit for feeling like shit after you make me feel like shit.
I wish I could throw in the metaphorical towel, but it's currently metaphorically looped around my neck and attached to the metaphorical ceiling fan.
AIYA TL;DR - Fuck me for being such a stupid, sentimental, stupid, softhearted, stupid spastic child.
Okay I'm feeling better now. He has been trying to bribe my greedy heart with grovelling, Topshop and good grub for the past 20 minutes and it's working GODAMNIT. It's so unfair that he knows all my weaknesses (tsk you manipulative fatty you tsk.). Oh and I also get one wish - I love how vague that sounds. It means I can ask for anything I want and he has to comply WOOHOO! Shiok feeling better already. Okay back to prepping for tmr ttys (: !