i'm an irritating bitch. wow. i just don't get a just to talk to you anymore and i call every chance i get. i won't do that anymore. at least i'll try not to. sigh. i'm getting possessive too ? haiz. call you when you out with friends cuz i juz wanna know where u are. isn't that normal?? nvm, i won't ask, so i just hope that you'll tell me when u want to or when u feel like it. and why the hell am i being possessive suddenly ? i don't fucking know. wah sian. my heart hurts. fuck it all to hell.feel like crying. do i really not consider ur feelings anymore ? does it irritate u cuz i call you when you're talking to your friends outside? i'm sorry. i didn't realize i irritated u so much. you know what's going through my mind right now ? maybe we should just seperate then i won't be so possessive and you could have your freedom back or something. kao. i can't believe i'm actually typing this. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME . i'm screamin inside.

i'm so lonely . where's jamie ? roar. at ed's house, partying. hope he doesn't drink too much booze though. roar. i realized i've been neglecting my friends for jamie. wow. i'm like buayier #1 now .. roar.. i think lyd and me have drifted apart since i spend all my time with j now .. sigh . sorry lyd .. how am i gonna divide my time ? ROAR .. haiz . so lonely now . bored to death , he isn't replying and i'm working tomorrow. all i do now is work work work work work . on the day that i'm not ,lyd isn't free . HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FIX thE GAP ??? ROAR !!! work work work work work bloody work all bloody freakin day. >=( .. although i get paid, it still sucks cuz i can't spend time with my friends. does that make me a selfish bitch cuz everyone helps out and i'm complaining my ass off here in my blog ? guess so. roar.

i'm a selfish, lonely beeyatch. =( .