buayed.
loneliness,misery.
accompanies me.
are they having fun without me ?
all i do is work work work
i don't have a choice.
if i do, i get scolded
if i don't i get scolded
if i smile i get scolded
if i dont, well , you know.
the only times i don't get scolded
is .well.
never.
scold scold scold
everyday
without fail.
tearing holes
in my soul.
down the drain.
there it goes.
flush.
its gone.
i am numb once again.
i pretend to be fine.
everyday.
school is my release.
and my prison.
seperated from friends.
we drift apart.
again, making holes in my soul
leaving scars on my heart.
my home.
isn't warm.
its cold.
sharp remarks fly here.
no stopping them.
they tear at you.
without thought they are thrown.
the hypocracy.
the loneliness.
the misery.
the jealousy.
the hurt.
the pretense.
the suspence.
the lies.
they burn.
once again.
i pretend.
numbness.
i cannot feel.
i am numb.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa !!! FUcKING FRUSTRATED . FUCK .why the fuck is everything going wrong ? stop SCOLDING Me !!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i fEEL LIKE CrYING . LEAVE ME ALONE .. why Can't YOU JUST STOP SCOLDING ME. i CAN"T HELP IT IF I DON"T SMILE ALL THE TIME. Must YOU TAKE EVERYTHING I DO OFFENSIVELY ? WAD GO FOR SURGERY ETC ETC. FUCK OFF LA. I WAS BORN LIKE THAT. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I'M SO FRUSTRATED . STOP SCOLDING ME STOP SCOLDING ME STOP SCOLDING ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please .. please stop .. i can't take it anymore.