wow .. long time no blog liao .. sigh .. what a fucking depressing day man .. first was working den got really fucking frustrated now mE anD ******* arE quarrELLinG anD FUCK I"M SO FUCKING IRRITATED !! must if ALWAYS fuCking bE aBout You ? wE Can't it bE aBOTU US ?? oR eveN ME ? it'S aLWAYS ABOUT YOU !! hOW you want it , how you like it .. everything is just YOU YOU YOU . i know you're fucking hungry. but being fuckign hungry doesn't give you the right to be fucking cranky. wtF. that was fucking unfair. you're hungry , ok .. but i can't EAT WITH YOU CUZ MY PARENTS ARE STRICT anD YOU ALREADY KNOW THAT SO WHY ARE YOU SO UPSET ?? do you think that i DONT" wanna EaT wiTH You ? i just wanted to see your face + plus pass you the fucking camera and the fucking watch so you would get scolded by your gaurdian. wtf la. i do EVERYTHING you want me to do. or at least i TRY . don't wear that skirt , fine. i won't wear it. don't wear that jeans. and i don't wear it no more. don't drag your heels when you walk. don't poke you for fun. don't pinch you for fun. don't this and don't that den whY DOn'T I JUST FUCKING SIT IN ONE CORNER AND SHUT UP SO THAT YOU CAN NEVER FUCKING "DON'T" ME EVER AGAIN ? but then you'll say something like "what's wrong wth you ??" after each time you scold me and i won't even know what to say . when you scold me, it FUCKING HURTS. ok ? happy now ? so when i'm hurting, i SHUT UP.. that's why i don't fucking talk. i can't smile or laugh when i'm feelign hurt wad, obviously. i'm nto crazy. i don't laugh and i don't smile when i feel like my heart kenna stab witha fucking fork . you think it's funny ? i don't .. fuck.. i feel like just giving up. just give you up and my WHOLE freaking life would be so much easier. but i can't. cuz i love you. and you're making it damn difficult for me. nabei. im' just gonna go blast my linking paRK mUsIc La . and wtf when you wanted your stuff back you can at least call me by my name right ? what OI ? my name IS NOT OI la for heaven's sake. you NO FUCKING MANNERS AR ? $&*(@^&*$^@(&$(@*#&@(#&*(@#&@$*( !!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sch starts today .. CRAP .. our classes now end at 2.30 EVERY FREAKin DAY !! and each person has a freakin discipline FORM !?!? wtf .. dumbshit .. i'm just GONNA get poor for conduct .. blah .. save mEEEE !!! i miSS jaMie likE .. well , like chocolate.. wahahahahha .. whatever .. ate KFC with my bro and bought my sch shoes (finally ) YAY !! nwo i haev CLEAN WHITE SHOES !! wahahah whatever .. jignle bells jingle bells .. i miss hIM !!! MUACKS !! gonna skip lessons tomorrow cuz i gotta teach the sec 1 the line danc ( wahAHAHHAHAHAHA ) i am SO gonna torture them and they are so dead. . BLAHS !! boring people .. sMACK thEM !! wahAHAHAHAHAHAHAH ..
fuck. it's the end of the year.fuck again.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
what the fuck am i gonna do now? we broke up yesterady night , but i ain't sure if we still together. we're going out later , for the last time. it fuckin sucks. i dun't want to fucking leave you.. i'm fuckIN brokEN now.. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. i love you . and i'm sorry .. i really hope you'll wait for me , but one year is a fucking long time and a lot of fucking fucked up things can happen. but hey , i can still hope. i'm sorry i woke u up at 4 am and again 10 am. i just missed you , that's all . i couldn't sleep cuz i kept thinking about us . what the fuck is wrong with me ? fuck . jamie , my baby .. i love you so so much . i'm bleeding inside .. fuck . merry fucking x'mas and a fuckin new year .