Nabei fucking bad mood now .. dunno which stupid fucking teacher told my dad about me and jamie and now my dad is angry with me and FUCK so many things are going wrong and it's all that fucking KPO chao chee bai's fault. FUCK IT LA ! WHY ACN YOU JUST STAY OUT OF MY LIFE AND NOT INTERFERE WITH IT ? FUCK YOU !! NABEI ! Alvin rented a chalet for his birthday and i couldn't go because my father's still pissed and IT'S BEEN A FOUR FUCKING WHOLE DAYS AND HE'S STILL PISSED AND MY SISTER'S PISSED AT ME TOO FOR SOME FUCKING REASON AND I'M SO FUCKING PISSED I CAN'T FUCKING SEE STRAIGHT ALL YOU FUCKING KPO CHEE BAI ASSHOLES STAY OUTTA MY FUCKING LIFE ! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH !!!! NABEI FUCKING UNFAIR . BECAUSE OF YOUR FUCKIGN KPO-NESS , MY LIFE IS SO FUCKING MISERABLE DID YOU KNOW THAT YOU FUCKING KPO CHAO CHEE BAI ?!?!?! IF I EVER FIND OUT WHO YOU ARE I'M GONNA FUCKING MAKE YOUR LIFE MISERABLE. went for leasdership camp. screwed up shit but there were some fun parts la .. good job to roseanne , rosaline , and yonghui . the rest was just plain shitty.. i had fun during camp actually , but i hate it when i have to go home. see everyone bloody chee bai faces. must you all be this way ? waht the fuck did i do now yvonne ? tell me la ? having jamie as a boyfriend really pissed you off doesn't it ? chao chee bai i have no idea what to say to you now. i used to look up to you. and now that i see you , you've become my worst nightmare. you hurt me in ways that are sick and twisted and you don't even realize it. like asking you questions and getting sarcastic stupid fucked up answers or you ignoring me altogether. i'm sick and tired of your crap will you fucking stop it ? i hope you read this. but then again i guess you'll get pissed at me again and treat me worse because now i realize you NEVER change. never. so why in fuckign hell should i even try ? why the fucking hell should i put hopes on you changing your fucked up attitude and treating me nicer ? maybe coz , like you said , i'm stupid and irritating and fat and the worst sister on earth. maybe cause i annoy you by just being there . i don't know . but it hurts cuz i have to live with your rejectiong , your resentment and your insults everyday. e-v-e-r-y-d-a-y . can you feel my overflowing joy ? it's overflowing so much it's seeping to the groud or evaporating or whatever cuz it's gone now. we used to be happy and not quarrel so much. used to . and now never again . sometimes i look at you and i wonder if it was me who changed , or you who changed. i wonder if you know the pain you cause , or if you do it again to make it hurt more. you just basically confuse me. that's all there is to it. i love jamie . there's nothing you can do about it. so stop trying . hate you , but love you . can't help that. never can , never will. and dad. stop it. you know i have a boyfriend. so don't bullshit about being open and all that fucked up crap when you totally resent the fact that i DO have a boyfriend. or maybe it's because he's from ITE. so what? does it matter ? does it really fucking matter that much ? somebody just fucking tell me. i'm gonna get depression or insanity or something. cuz i am sick and fucking tired of people rejecting the fact that i have a boyfriend. sick and tired that people keep putting me down. sick and FUCKING BLOODY tired of just being sick and tired. and now , let me end this post by saying : to all you people who think you know me but actually don't - fuck off. to all you fucking KPO and NOSY busybodies in the world - fuck off. you never know what your interfering eill get people into. to all those assholes who insult people to hurt them : fuck off. and to all those people out there who bitch about people whom they don't know well , have never met , or think fucking highly of themselves , fuck off. and now , my final words : fuck off . think about every fucked up thing you have done in your life . think about your effect on people . just sit down and fucking think. den you'll finally understand what kind of fucked up person you really are. so fuck off everyone. just bloody fuck off.

fuck. fucked up day . went to sch , boring as hell . mom called me , asked me to go straight home . and she wouldn't bloody tell me why. then jamie was at my school , so i gave him a hug . and whaddayanoe . fucking KPO DM go Paotoe to my father and my father KpKb like crap. saying wad he ain't gonna stop me from having a relationship but don't do it in school uniform and that jamie is in ITE and that he won't be able to support me in the future and BlaHbLahbLaH .. whad the hell you want me to say ? i'm speechless. totally and completely. what's wrong with you all ? mom , dad , my sis ( especially her ) all fucking stereotyped against him. fuck off la. what's your problem. den bloody hell chiong go home fuckin forgot to buy groceries for camp tml. ask my bruther buy , he don't wanna. den in the end couldn't get what i wanted and bloody fuck i'm so pissed i can't see straight. than CCB my sister yst quarrel with me over small thing then KNN give me fuck face den today ask me to buy stuff for her suddenly so nice to me. chaocheebye go home den give me fuck face again . what the fuck man. chee bai day sia. fuck off man. everyone just leave me the fuck alone. CCB . and now i'm fucking confused about jamie. what my dad says is sorta true cuz we're both unsure of future . what the hell. i'm confused. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck .

my heart is breaking , my soul is aching ,
what kind of chances am i taking ?
fuck the free world - yeah that's what i said .
i'm so confused by the voices in my head.
i'm crying inside , dying inside
i never wanna leave you.
but fuck all this is stressing me out ,
what if i really have to ?

went for precamp today .. did my group's banner and cheEr .. my Groups name is called.. BuiLdinG hopPErs .. WTF ?!?!?! DoeSn't EvEn MaKe sEnSe !! waHAHAHAHAHA !! BannEr tuRneD ouT aLrigHT i guESs , the CheEr iS craP and the Day waS craPPieR . DidN't geT to sEE jaMIe , goT caUGht in the Rain and cLeaRed uP my SisTer's VoMIt ( she's sick ). eXceLLent day . woohoo. can you feel the total excitement i'm feeling ? bLeaHZ .

YAY!! jusT installed MaplesTory , this cute game! WEEEEe !! haha .. PONTANGDED sCHOOL TODAY !! WEEEEEEEE !! my ParEnts Don't neED to sEE my TeachErs cuz i passed Eng and 4 OTHER SUBS !! WOOOHOOOOO !!!!but the best thing is , my whole group PONTANGdED without consulting each other NOw the teacher think we Paka Pontang .. go back sure jialat one .. WAHAHAHAHAHAHA .. i MISS JAMIE !! was working the whole day , and talked with my DaddEE ! so Fun !! hEHEheHE .. boUght a WalLet foR my SisTa yStday .. $39.90 !!! i'm BRokE !!! hahaa .. yeah well , nvm la .. jamie , don't be angry k ? loVe yOu !! hahaa .. this guy from ITE came to the lan shop, but didn't have a shirt .. so my dad lent him the shirt with a BIG TEDDY BEAR on it that said I LOVE YOU and had Lotsa hearts on it !!! WAHAHAHAHAHA !!! buay TaHAn sia .. so FARniE !! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeee !! my group name for the leadership camp is " Building hoppers " ??? WTH ?? WAHAHAHAH !! bOiNG boIng boIGN !!!! wE arE thE buILdinG hoppEr waTCh US HOP !! Boing boIng boIng boIng !! LOL !! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA !!

iF aT fIrst You dOn't SucCeEd , rEdeFinE SucCeSS !!

BLaHz.. wOrked frOM 10 to 6++ toDay.. so TirINg .. SomE IRRESPONSIBLE IDIOT SPILT PEPSI ON THE KEYBAORD and RAN AWAY !!! BlOODY CHEECKEN !! at LEast TELL US SO WE CAN CLEAN IT UP AND NOT SPOIL THE KEYBOARD WAD !! BLOODY HUMJI FUCKASS .. !! sickening balless shit-for-brains.. aAAARGH !! reTaRdeD .. den there was this guy , who wrote his name as Pizzie .. wTh ?? what kind of name is that ? couldn't even read the damn handwriting .. turns out his name was PierrE .. * bLeaHs * i thought it was pizza or pretzel or something .. YOUR HANDWRITING SUX !! so PekCeK toDay .. bloody gamers so buAy ziDong .. anywayz .. haven't talked to jamie so far .. i miSS YOU !!!!!!! nVr meEt you fOR so LoNG Le !!! sigH .. wHY do You geT anGry wHEn i caLL yOU deN i haVE to put DowN cuZ my paRents haVE comE homE ? You think i like to put down mehz ??i aLreaDY toLd you i'LL geT scOLdeD .. so PeKceK for waD ?? .. siaN sia .. NO moOD Le ..

BABY YOU ARE SO IRRITATING !! I FEEL LIKE STRANGLING YOU !!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH !!!!!!!!! STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT !!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH !!!!!!!!!! den you fetch me home so KaNchiOng to Run oFF !! WHY ?!?!?! ... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH !!!!! onE Day day iF i ReaLLy Strangle you , You ShouLd KNOw tHAt YOU BLOODY DESERVE iT !! i'm sorried i called you a sHithead . aCCident .. sorry baby .. SiGH .. i can't stay angry at you for so long anywayz. miss you. love ya . wish i had more time to spend with you . =( .. MuaCKs ..

Had this Formal lunch thingy at farrer today , boring as hell but kinda fun .. hahaha .. yst my sis watched the exorcist so i had to fetch her forom the mRt with my brother .. wE had 2 bikes, but three people .. sO hoW ??? My bROther tooK 1 bike , my sis and me shared ( holy shit ! ) .. wahahaha .. she tried sitting while i rode the bike .. almost lUNgaH the DaMned RaiLing .. so shE rode instEad while i Sat .. sO daMN faRNie , CLinGinG to thE baSKet foR dEaR Life .. dEN i CLuNG so Hard shE couLdn't Turn aNd i feLL on my aSS ,, NOw i haVe a bruise there .. Ow .. hahaha .. i MISS JAMIE !! i HAVEN'T SEEN YOU IN SO LONG ~!!! I MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH baBY !!!! lOVe ya !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so anyway, my sis and em had a fight, and now it's ok cuz we were discussing the FuGly guy with a disgusting PIN thiNgy StuCK tHROUgh HIs liP .. ewwwwwwww.. lol .. i miSs my baby .. . WHAHAHAHAHAHA ..

YAY !! LAST DAY OF THE EXAMS !!WOOHOOOO oh yeah oh yeah !!!!! went to orchard to celebrate Ziying b'day .. not much of celebration , but we HaD lOTsa Fun .. esPeciaLLy wiTh THE gLaSS doOR .. heHEhehEheh .. WaTCHed WiMbLeDoN .. quite a funny movie .. Met jamie and LonG jOhn .. YoU got YouRseLf a bEEg DiaMonD !! WAHAHAHAHAHAHA =P .. FaTbOY !! heehee i MISS YOU anD YOU BUAY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hOW CAN YOU dO ThaT !!!! huMph . BuaYEr .. mIss YoU so BaD .. Sigh .. Brother fetched me hOme on His BIKE .. wahahaha .. actually , i took it from him and rode home .. waahahahah .. let him slowly walk .. den he caught up , took the bike back , and made ME run after him .. wahahaha ..anyway , got home and my sister's in a bad mood .. spoil my day .. why can't you just be nicer to mE .. am i ThaT haRd to bE Nice to ? .. wadeva la . don't know , don't WAnt to KNow ..

aCt you aGE, NOt youR shOe Size , shIthead.

had Chem and Account test today .. crap sia .. both also anyhow do .. i'mam SO gonna fail chem .. is calcium a metal anyway ?? crap .. boohoo .. hahaha .. miSS my BabY .. aM i ObSeSSed ??? i ThinK i aM !! i'M scArinG mYseLF !! hahaha .. baBy you owe mE a BiG bIg bEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeg DiaMoND !! WahAHahahAHa .. Hope you didn't get sunburned at sentosa today .. i was just watching one episode of naruto with my bro .. wtf it's so STUPID !! wahahah .. thie guy poisoned his enemy with an "odourless, tastless drug that will give you hiccups FOREVER !! take your hiccups and DIE in PAIN !! " .. WAHAHAHAH WTF !!! STUPID SHOW .. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ..

waHAHahaHa .. MaTHs test today .. CRAP sIA .. i'm gonna fail my ass off .. WaHAHahAH .. BIO teSt Too .. qUitE aLriGht la .. WEEEEEEEe i'm HyPeR NOw .. i'm GoInG to TAIWAN !! YAY !! but i'll mIss my BaBy .. hmMM .. mAYbe i Won't GO theN ? diDn't Get to sEE Him todaY .. or the day b4 .. i MISS YOU, YOU FAT BOY !!! haha .. caLL mE QuiCK !!! WaHAHahAHhahaHA .. He's waTCHing White ChiCks aGAin LaTEr .. wAsTE $mOOLA$ baBY !! i"M gONNa DisTuRB hIm tiLL hE goEs NutS !! WAHahAHAHa .. damn . i miss him . and i really do love him so much .. hehehe ..waH mY baCk AcHes LiKE a daMn bitch..

YOu'rE LoOkiNg fOR mY goODieS kEEp on LoOkin Coz tHEy StaY in thE jaR - [ Ciara - mY goODies ]

booring day .. went to harbourfront MAc to try and finish the storyboard for the video .. it's SO dAMn StYLO !!! the place has changed so much since i'd last been there .. sigh .. met up with jamie ( this is you .. WAHAHAHAHa ) at payar lebar and took a bus to tampines where i worked until 10++ . soOOo tirEd .. Monday there's Bio and MAths paper .. crap .. gonna fail maths like crazy !! sigh .. baby i miss you .. i think i'm obsessed .. wahahaha ..

LETS GET MARRiED !!!



on second thought .. maybe not .. hmmm .. LOL .. just kidding baby .. loVE yOU ..

had SS paper and ENglish Paper 2 tOday ..english was not a prob. SS was and still IS a PAIN IN THE ASS !! Do unTiL daMN chEECaKe aH !! aaROn i'M goNna KicK youR aSS !! waHAhaha .. me and my brother were cleaning the fish tanks outside my hOUse .. wHEn he SPRAYED ME WITH A HOSE !! den he RAN INSDE !! *&@#^@&* !!! so , being the genius that i aM , i SAT ON HIM !! MUAHAHAHAHAHa !!! WALkeD homE wIth mY baBY aGain . I LOVE YOU SO MUCH . actually , i love you EVEN MORE coz of what you said to mE , buT caNNot pUt heRe La .. PaisEh Leiz !! hEHEheHe .. i LikE it wHEn yOU tiE my LaCes foR me and when you sing foR mE ( thiS LooKs just LIke yOU ! ) hEhEEE... haha .. so swEEEt .. LovE YOU !!! WAHahahah .. yOU waNt to haVE 10 kIds?? wahahaha .. iF thEy're aLL LIke You , then it'll bE thE End oF thE wORLD .. hahaha

*Jo , thEY aRe f.cKin BiatCHes . igNore thEM .. it'LL bE alRight .. you cAN sEt thEM oN fiRe =) .. jusT doN't GeT cAugHt . wahahah

BABY DON'T SMOKE !! i Love You .. hEHehE