Fought with [*Jamie] again .. WiLL YOU STOP INSISTING THAT I EAT MY BLOODY MEDICINE ?!! I HATE EATING MEDICINE !! i told you before that i hate it when you shout at me .. why'd you do it again ? :( .. The only reason i didn't shout back was becoz i didn't want to. baby , stop losing your temper with me .. it hurts so much .. yesterday you told me if i wanted to die early, i could . how could you say that ?? baybEE !!! :( .. i was crying on da phone except you didn't realize coz you were busy playing runescape .. i don't understand how you can make someone happy yet make her miserable the next moment .. :( .. so sad baby .. miss yOu so much .. :( .. i don't wanna call you ... i have my pride and you have yours .. it still hurts although you apologized .. :( .. and you said i was annoying .. am i really ? i asked you to call my bro's hp only becoz i couldn't use the house phone to talk to you .. do you think i wanna make things troublesome for you ? :( .. don't do this baby .. :( .. love you so much .. that's why i won't shout at you .. one day , if i do .. i don't know what will happen .. :( ... miss you ..



[* i'M sorrY i Can'T bE pErfEct ..]

Visited the doc again .. got my leg bandaged .. haha .. look at me! i'm mummified !! haha .. he says the swelling won't go down till i eat my medicine regularly ( which i don't.) DaMN . haha .. iT's a SaD saD DaY . JaMie'S goNe bACk to SmoKing ..NOoOo baBy .. dOn't do thIs baby =( .. SigH .. In what wAY doEs SMoKing heLp you tO reLieVE strESS baBY ?!?! bLaHz .. wish you wouldn't start again .. i was so happy when you stopped =( .. blahz.. poN-taNg-ded sChoOl Today to Finish up my bio work .. Finally COmpleted .. though it's a bit messy .. i'M strEsSed .. shoulD i turn to smoking too ? .. bLahZ .. gotta go eat my medicine coz i promised jamie i would .. blahz ..

There was a family gathering today. DAMN . and i was FORCED to go even though i didn't want to and i have a SPRINED ANKLE .. BLAHZ .. anyway , the food was really really GOOD [ *yuM ] . so at least there was some sort of consolation. and my sister's TALKING TO ME AGAIN !!!!!!! YAY !!! =D oh wait - that was BERFORE 10 mins ago when she asked me if i was still with that stupid idiot . In hER WORDS - not mine. bLAHZ .. WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ACCEPT HIM ? HE'S A NICE PERSON ALRIGHT?? YOU'RE BEING UNFAIR =( .. just when i thought things were going great. *siGh* .. anD noW i havE to Eat 10 bLack piLL thingies and 10 ml of the black liquid. sick. iF onLy sHe'd acCept him !!! blAHz .. remember people !

iF thE worLD diDn't SuCk - wE'd aLL faLL oFF

haha .. anyway .. iF You Ever see this , i hope you know how much it hurts when you say you don't like him . coz you've never met him in your entire life.. oh well . damned if you do and damned if you don't . blAhz .. miSs jamIe my BabY .. You MU FREAK !! hahaha .. love ya ! muAcks ! =) ..

WeNT to The cHinEse doc today .. waited from 10.30am to 3pm !! wtf man .. SO LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOng !! whEn iT waS mY tuRn .. KuKuFieD sHIt mAN !!!! He Rotated it HeRe rOtaTed it thErE , TwisTeD iT heRe anD TwiStEd iT thEre !! WTF !! OuChiEs mAN !! do You knoW what thE woRd GENTLE means ?!?! bloody hell .. almost friggin cried .. blAHz .. but at least i got to see jamie =) .. my sweetie pie .. hEhE .. daMn you're Such a DarLinG !! lOVe yOU sOoOOoo muCH ThoUgh i DOn'T saY so =).. hEHE .. mUaCKs !! but YoU'rE FriGGin EVIL !! hOw can yOU LAuGh whEN thE Guy WaS muRdErinG my aNkLe ?!?! hahah .. lovE ya Anywayz my baBy =) .. ANywayz .. gotta go back on tuesday .. pLus i gOt TheSe little bLAck PiLL THinGiEs anD a BottlE oF bLaCk VERY VERY BITTER medicine. DAMN. i have to take 10 pills and 10 ml of the black stuff - THREE timEs a DAY !!! THAT'S - hold on, let me get my calculator - 30 PILLS AND 30 ML OF BLACK STUFF PER DAY !!!NOOOoOOooOOOOOoooOOOOO .. bLaHz .. i ThiNk i'M OfFiCiaLLY gRoSSiFiED .. MiSs yOu My bABy .. pLus .. mY SisTer aCtually talked to me today .. she offered to lend me her slippers =) .. SUPRISE SUPRISE !! and a very pleasant suprise at that !! =D .. nOT sure if it was just coz she wanted to wear my Sketcher shoes buT hEY ! at LeaSt shE oFfErEd to leNd mE heR sLiPpeRs =D !! iT'S noT suCH a Bad dAY aftEr aLL .. jusT hopE onE daY jaMie anD mE wiLL geT heR acCePtaNce .. it'LL mEaN sOoOooOO muCH to mE .. but well , it's such a long way off .. well , i shan't get my hopes up .. i'm oFf to eaT my ReaLLy REALLY REALLY BITTER mEdicIne * soBx * WHY mEEE ?? LOL .. miSS ya jaMie mY baBy .. loVe yOu .. =)
i'M sO gLaD yOU qUiT sMokIng =)

sprained muh ankle during P.E .. ouchies .. damn!! it hurts so fucking much and i'm waddling like a friggin DUCK !! social studies test and maths test too !! what a shitty day .. well .. at least there was a consolation .. =) .. my baby carried me home .. LOL .. or at least, he tried to =P .. haha .. yOu'rE so swEEt .. love you =) .. hEhE .. hope i don't hafta go to sch tomorrow .. but gotta hand up my work ..* SigH * .. HuNgRy i AM !! oucHiEs !! i'm hungry and pissed .. a lethal combination .. haha ... i gotta go get me some food... my brother woke up at 6.30pm and thought he was late for school .. LOLZ .. funny little dude .. hunGry !!!!! gotta find me some food !!!!! .. miSs yOu my bABy =)
[* a huNgrY woMaN is a stUpiD woman wHo sPrained her GodaMned ankLE . bLahz. *]

i MisS jaMie ~!!!! hE's gonE to maLaYsia .. miSs yOU my baBy .. hEhE .. waH .. dEbatE frOm 9 to 5 .. so BorIng !!! sparred against AJC and lost like crap .. i sCrEwEd up .. daMn .. sorrY jO ..
=( .. daMn ! i really want to have the drive .. but seriously i don't have it.. WiSH i dId .. i rEaLLy waNt to go aLL the wAY to thE fiNaLs .. bLahz .. sorry iF i Let You aLL doWn .. aNYwayz .. hUngRy !!! Bought my food athe hawker center .. and some aSShoLe gave me attitude.. likE HELLO ?! it's not as if you're handsome or what ! pULeEEEzE !! lOSer sHit .. >=( .. aNywaY .. i MISS JAMIE !!!!!!! Wonder how long we'll last .. hopE it's reaLLy reaLLy really really really really really really LoooooOooOOOOoOOng , my baby =) ..
[*//Lydia : it's GonnA bE aLrigHt baBe =) yOu're strOng eNougH to pULL through and you will coz i'LL be there for you whenever you need me =) ]

Went to see catwoman today. boooooooooring !!! DAMN if it isn't the most boring show i've ever seen.. blahz.. late for school again.. it's my 8th time? WOW .. haha ..so it seems i'll have detention on monday.. DAMN! haha .. miss my baby .. quite pissed off today lar.. haiz.. [*jaMiE - i Know shE doEsn't LikE you - and i know it's not fair .. but please try to understand, it's really difficult for me to be with you when she doesn't approve =( .. i really need you to understand .. i know you dislike her too , but don't scold her - when you scold her , it breaks my heart. whEn she scolds you - it breaks my heart too baby. please understand =( ] .. i don't know what to do .. sooner or later i will have to choose between you or my sister. I can't take it anymore baby!!!!! She's so mean to me because i'm with you. i can't help but think that things would be different between me and my sister if you and i weren't togeher. i don't want to choose baby .. i love you ... =(

Well well well. and here i'd gone and thought i'd never get a bloggie thingy. whaddayanoe - miracles do happen =D .. anyways .. quarrelled with my sister and brother the day before. "why do you hate coming home? " my parents ask. THAT'S why. when you have siblings from hell, you'd hate to come home too. my sister actually hates the crap outta my boyfriend, Jamie, when she hasn't even met him. Her immediate dislike for him hurt- much more then i liked. wEll, the world is unfair- what to do? .. anwyay, i was on the phone and watching some idiots ridcule themselves on singapore idol when she came in , took the remote and promptly changed the damned channel. like HELLO ?!?!? are you blind? am i not ALIVE watching the damned TV SHOW ?? well whaddayounoe. she can see me - but she doesn't care. In her exact words " so? i don't care". DAMn if this world doesn't already have an excess of bitches. yeah well. bite mE . then i quarreled with my brother. the fool. it doesn't matter what i do and do not say alright? it's none of your nosy KPO business anyway, you royal pain in the ass. i miss jamie. and i hate my sister for disapproving of him(never mind that she has never met him in his life ). whateva. whaddayounoe- Resentment has found a new way of release. yeah wadeva. It's a sad day anyway. Cindy's leaving the school. NOOOOO.. don't go =( .. we'll miss you.. *sigh* ..will think of you often .. do come back and visit =) .. Will miss all the times we had.. *sigh* ..